Spirals of disillusionment
Coming halfway across the world in attempts at making a difference have not worked out as we planned. Some days we can see positive effects and others seem like we have actually done more harm than good. (Thankfully, there are more days when it looks good than bad.)
Part of the problem is that I'm human. The other part is that those I work with are too.
I was going to go into detail here, but I don't want to incriminate those I wanted to mention. And being vague and general serves little purpose.
On a personal level, my moods swing with work-related events that hit. I'd like to be more insulated, but then my compassion would go out the window.
Perspective is important. One friend said yesterday that we should be content with what can actually be done in a day. (That was an oversimplification of what Dallas Willard had said to a meeting of leaders here, about ten years ago.)
The comforting knowledge is that God has a plan that's way bigger than what we can see.
We would appreciate your prayers.